Yee Wei

I'm down

2010-03-24T13:12:00.003+08:00

It's so damn boring these few days.Although I got lots of stuff to do,but I don't seems like I'm in the mood of doing it.
Haiz,suddenly I felt so down,I don't know why,money problem?I guess so,but that's not the main reason.
Boring makes me feel emo,and I don't like being emo,I felt like driving around the island,I know that I might sound crazy?but that's what I did when I was emo.
Sometimes when u're trying to chat with other people,they tend to ignore u or just reply a few words,I hate that.
Eveything is so not right!
What can I do?what should I do?
I miss the old time where I used to hangout with my
mates,although we lived in the same island,but we don't seems to contact each other that much like we used to,or totally don't conact each other at all.
New friends seems cool,but after chated for like few times,the tend to ignore u as well.
Is it the way I talk got some serious problem or what?or is it the problem of other people??
I don't know,I'm not good in those good nor best friend thingy.
I don't have a good friend to talk with,I only had a good gf tht would share the stuff that I carried on my shoulder.
Still,friends and girlfriend is totally two different things.Some topics u only say it to your gf,some you only say it to your friend.
I don't know whether I have serious communication problem or what??
Am I too cocky?or I'm being too friendly?
Today I'm just so down,not in the mood of doing anything.

Its been a while

2010-03-15T01:42:00.002+08:00

Its been a while since my previous post. Life's been so tough on me lately,with so few pennies with me,but there's loads of stuff that i gotta spend for.Its unfair,as always,life is always unfair.
I just broke down,i'm trying to put myself back together.
All that i'm after is the life that's full of laughter,but life's been so dull to me lately.
But i believe that there people out there who still cared for me,my bie,my friends.Thanks to bb, thanks to khing!
i believe that life after this will be much better,full of laughter...
Those who think that life's been tough on them,which i'm one of them as well should consider that there's more people out there which their condition is far worst than us.
i felt grateful for my life but in the same time i hate the way it is.

Annoying people

2009-11-26T11:15:00.002+08:00

Yesterday some stupid yet annoying shit happened to me.

b.manager : "what the hell is happening just now?why you behave so unconvincingly towards the customer?why you're unable to close the sales?"

my reaction was like "what the fuck is wrong with this guy?"

me : "customer was asking for headphones that can be used for skype,i introduce to her DR115DP, and she browse for a while and asked me for more information and i answered her,and she said she will go gurney to browse for more choices before purchasing."

b.manager : "why you always like that wan?as long as the headphone with microphone jack will compatible with all laptops or desktop"

i kept quite and i walked away,of course i know that,i'm not 白痴 ok?

its ridiculous isn't it? not even the GM screwed me when i'm unable to close a deal,yet this stupid people who get paid for nothing said me for this small matter. His job is basically coming late to job,facebook,msn,PS3..thats it..

another funny matter is,i was doing the SONY TIME MAGAZINE holder,he asked me to do it,and i was looking for a way to do it,and he come to me and asked me,"know how to do or not?i said agak agak la,"he answer how can agak agak wan?let me do lar,all i do lar easier...he went back there and took around 10 minutes to figure it out while another assistant manager of mine almost completed the holder...

There's much more ridiculous things about him,i just don't wanna mention it anymore..its all "no road".

Understand This(retrieved from an article)

2009-09-24T20:02:00.000+08:00

人之所以痛苦，在于追求错误的东西。
如果你不给自己烦恼，别人也永远不可能给你烦恼。
因为你自己的内心，你放不下。
好好的管教你自己，不要管别人。
你随时要认命，因为你是人。
这个世界本来就是痛苦的，没有例外的。
你什么时候放下，什么时候就没有烦恼。
每一种创伤，都是一种成熟。
当你烦恼的时候，你就要告诉你自己，
这一切都是假的，你烦恼什么？
根本不必回头去看咒骂你的人是谁，
如果有一条疯狗咬你一口，
难道你也要趴下去反咬他一口吗？
忌妒别人，不会给自己增加任何的好处。
忌妒别人，也不可能减少别人的成就。
永远不要浪费你的一分一秒，去想任何你不喜欢的人。
得不到的东西，我们会一直以为他是美好的，
那是因为你对他了解太少，没有时间与他相处在一起。
当有一天，你深入了解后，
你会发现原不是你想像中的那么美好。
这个世间只有圆滑，没有圆满的。
不要刻意去猜测他人的想法，
如果你没有智慧与经验的正确判断，
通常都会有错误的。
你要感谢告诉你缺点的人。
时间总会过去的，让时间流走你的烦恼吧！
不要因为小小的争执，远离了你至亲的好友，
也不要因为小小的怨恨，忘记了别人的大恩。
感谢上苍我所拥有的，感谢上苍我所没有的。
当你手中抓住一件东西不放时，你只能拥有这件东西，
如果你肯放手，你就有机会选择别的。
人的心若死执自己的观念，不肯放下，
那么他的智慧也只能达到某种程度而已。
如果你能够平平安安的渡过一天，那就是一种福气了。
多少人在今天已经见不到明天的太阳，
多少人在今天已经成了残废，
多少人在今天已经失去了自由，
多少人在今天已经家破人亡。
恶口永远不要出自于我们的口中，不管他有多坏，
有多恶。你愈骂他，你的心就被污染了，
你要想，他就是你的善知识。
你不要常常觉得自己很委曲，你应该要想，
他对我这样已经很好了，这就是修行的功夫。
世界原本就不是属于你，因此你用不着抛弃，
要抛弃的是一切的执著。
万物皆为我所用，但非我所属。
学会用理解的，欣赏的眼光去看对方，
而不是以自以为是的关心去管对方。
成熟的人不问过去；
聪明的人不问现在；
豁达的人不问未来。
发光并非太阳的专利，你也可以发光。
你可以用爱得到全世界，你也可以用恨失去全世界。
爱的力量大到可以使人忘记一切，
却又小到连一粒嫉妒的沙石也不能容纳。
人总是珍惜未得到的，而遗忘了所拥有的。
如你想要拥有完美无暇的友谊，可能一辈子找不到朋友。

Minor arguments

2009-09-23T14:56:00.002+08:00

Arguments always exist in a relationship aint it?
if couples doesn't argue,does that even count as being in relatioship?
If problem exist,solve it then.
If problem continue to persist,find a good solution for both then.
No matter how pathetic i am,no matter how plan-less i am,no matter how doubful are you towards me,i'm still the one that loved you all the time.
I'll be the one that always cover your back,i'll be your only driver,i'll be your only partner to argue with.
I'll always be the one for you.

*EXCEPT you're trying to dumb me off.

内心世界

2009-09-15T01:56:00.002+08:00

内心的世界里匿藏着痛苦及疲累的我，渐渐的走向了绝望，
我觉得我拥有一切，其实，我是一无所有，
我好累，我真的好想抛弃一切，但是我却想起了你，
我只想拥有属于我们的空间，毫无拘束。。
此刻，我心里只想起你。
对不起，我的过错，令你掉泪。

New Environment

2009-08-20T10:43:00.002+08:00

I've started to work in the new company since last wednesday,everything is fine except for one thing,i can't really get along with one colleague.
I'm not really sure what's wrong with him or me?Is it that i've done anything wrong or else,i'm really sure what's his problem anyway,since the 1st day at work,i've tried to talk to him and he's like being so ignorance,i was like what the fuck,so rude?Fine,i guess i'm 1st day at work so i can't really comment much on this.
But after working for like one week over there,things are not improving either,just now i said to him "Wah,so early eat rice d?",i was talking in front of him,and he acted like i wasn't there and he kept quiet,i was like what the fuck?am i invisible,fine..i'll just fuck off then,i'm really pissed with this kind of attitude,i duno what's wrong with him anyway,it's like people is trying to befriend and he acted so strangely.Don't really know what's going on,just fuck it.Not making friend with one person in the shop doesn't gonna make any difference.So just fuck off.
I'm getting along with others of course,just him,not really sure what's his problem,or perhaps mine,but i'm new overthere,what can i do to pissed him off?
Not really sure,anyway,just fuck it.
Anyway,the working environment is not bad except there's alot of "seafoods" around,but luckily they're not on the ground floor.I'm still in SONY,but different employer.Still not bad just that working hour is longer compared to my previous employer,but who cares?as long as its better than the previous one,i'm really fine with it,since i'm so free right now.Staying at home makes me rot,but working makes me miss my home's bed so much,and my PC of course,hehe.
I've been so lazy to blog recently,will update when i feel like i wanted to.
Cheers!!

What to do

2009-08-09T17:10:00.002+08:00

what should i do?
i really don't get it,why do you had to act emotionally everytime?There's always a solution to everything right?But instead you had to get mad,slam things,talk pathetically,what is wrong with you?
i tried to kept quiet,but you're still doing it..Blame it all on me then,i shouldn't have bought it at the 1st place, i shouldn't have brought it to your house,i shouldn't have to do all this shits that day at the pet shop to made you happy.Its just so pathetic.
You can't cool yourself down,fine..i kept quiet,but you're still acting the way you are,i so pissed off that moment.That's why i don't feel like talking,i don't feeling saying anything,i don't feel like saying sorry anymore..
i'm tired of apologizing..
Clear your mind before you talk to me,as today will be the day that i'll act cruelly.I don't give a damn anymore..Just clear yourself before you talk to me..

Its alright

2009-07-17T02:17:00.002+08:00

Everything is alright,everything is solved.
I hope there will be no more misunderstanding between us,
I hope we'll always remain the same,no arguments,loving each other..
It really hurt so bad,i understand that feeling,i can barely sleep because of that..
but everything is alright now,i'm relieved,i'm happy,i'm relaxed...
i'm really happy that i'm with you once again,no more tears will be drop by you for me..
thanks for everything you've done babe,i love you..
everything will be alright,everything will be ok,just a little bit longer and we'll be fine..
Good Night!!

I'm still awake

2009-07-16T05:46:00.003+08:00

Its 5.40 am in the morning and i'm still awake.I don't really know what's going on with me?
Thoughts keep floating within my mind,but its unclear..
I really wanna sleep,i just wanna have a good rest after countless night of stupid web programming project..
What can i do?I need to sleep..

Backup

2009-07-14T14:55:00.002+08:00

Now i realize that how important was backing up all your files. I'm really regret that i don't really backup my project's files till now,until i accidentally deleted it moments ago,damn it..
It was freaking important to me,i can graduate or not it all depends on it,FUCK!!!
Now i'm trying to recover it using a software called "Recuva",i hope that it can really help me,else my documentation is all gone..God bless me..
i'm really worried about it..
If it's able to recover,i'll definitely back it up in my pendrive..haiz

mentally tired

2009-07-11T19:15:00.002+08:00

When you can't really express yourself,how do you feel?

I feel so bad that it bothers me alot.I don't wanna argue over this matter anymore.

Lacking trust towards me makes you think so,if you really trust me,do you really think that way?

I've been so tired,i've been very stressed..

I don't wanna argue over this matter anymore,i'll settle this matter...

I'm just very tired....

Just left me alone,don't ask me why...

i felt i'm six feet under the edge..

TorrentFlux

2009-07-08T19:10:00.003+08:00

I just subscribed this service last night,i can say that its awesome.It helps you to save electricity by using their server to download,what else so great about it?It doesn't cap the download speed like Tmnet do,the server itself is running on gigabit port..i attached a screenshot below,please have a look..its really great!!just to share with you guys who are 24/7 p2p downloader..you just log into your account and upload torrent to the server,then the server will do the job.

attached screenshot

Another screenshot,ftp from the server to my PC
running at fullspeed(that's why i subscribe this service)

see,its great right?
in only one night,or less than 24 hours,i've already downloaded 12GB worth of files using their server,now i'm transferring the files back to my PC.
I guess you guys should try it out.
Enjoy!!

Update

2009-07-04T13:57:00.002+08:00

i think i've ignored my blog for like ages...haha...guess its time to update it..been really busy this while..

My bunny gave birth to 7 babies and now its only one left..sob sob..but the one and only is growing and i hope it'll be as healthy as their parent..guess what?he/she(i'm still unable to determine the sex) is cute,cute in the sense of the way it act,the way it sleep..i just can't let go of it,haha...
June 30th was my bie's birthday,and we had a meal at chilis and it was awesome.I really enjoyed it very much.i hope she felt the same too..
3rd of July was my birthday as well,which is yesterday..guess what?i'm doing nothing except going for dragon boat training,but i've been treat a meal earlier which is on thursday,i enjoyed it as well.Thanks bie bie..
I'll upload some photos when i'm free.

Get well soon

2009-05-14T01:16:00.002+08:00

I wished that i can get well soon,been bothered by fever,headache,vommit for days...
its so suffering,wish i can get rid of all the symptoms real soon..
i'm feeling so sick,i just don't know whats wrong with me..
haiz..

Random

2009-05-07T03:23:00.004+08:00

Its been a while since i update my blog,i've upgraded to Microsoft's new OS which is Windows 7.

Its quite nice,under the hood,it had improved alot including USB transfer speed,Hdd's transfer speed as well.

I'll post up this screenshot below:
ps: don't laugh at my system's spec!!

That's all for Window 7's screenies

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Off Topics

Went to bukit merah with my bie and friends last week,its a nice trip and i enjoyed it so much.

The only thing that stop me from getting the most fun is the i only get to play a few attractions only,due to most of the nice attractions are being closed of for maintenance(thats what i heard from the staff),and its really annoying,cause without these few rides,its like meaningless..haha

Anyway,i won't be having classes from monday till thursday,which i consider everyday is holiday for myself,lol..But,i'm taking Final Year Project,so i guess there won't be much holiday for me as well..haha..

Anyway,good luck to all of my friends who started their new sem,for those who failed,try your very best next time!!

Good luck and take care...

Pointless

2009-04-28T02:22:00.002+08:00

Its pointless being a nice guy,its pointless to contribute anymore,

what do i get in return from the past contribution?I held clean records,I've sold tons of stuff,I've worked my ass out the momment you're lack of manpower.

In return i got my salary being hold,pay me back near the month end which is today,but not in full amount,what the fuck is wrong with you?

I've lost the spirit,one mistake and it cost me that,all the contribution doesn't comes into consideration..its pointless being there anymore,without the presence of me,it'll still operate well i guess...
Its pointless being a good guy,there's nth you'll get in return..This is the world,the materialistic world..Human,is so materialized...

For the top management people,will you understand the pain or feeling of the lower subordinates?

All you care about is your fucking income,your fucking profit,do you really care about your staff?

I don't think so....to be able to get your fucking income,you need us as well..without us,will your fucking so called succesful shop front be able to sell anything?

I'm freaking piss,I just want my money back,thats it..

I don't give a shit about the freaking investigation....

Just gave me back my money,,,,

New

2009-04-24T23:08:00.002+08:00

Everything is so new to me,

Its so different,

but its better compared to previous,

Slowly adapting,Slowly evolving,

It is low,but its nice and fun,

no more emptiness,

no more sorrow,

no more worries,

no more empty,

Its just so new...

Reminiscing

2009-04-19T13:29:00.002+08:00

Time passes really fast,i'm already a 20 years old guy,

Few days ago,i was looking at the photo when i was a kid,thinking back of the old times felt so good,

because i don't have to worry about anything,no money issues,no conflicts,no pressure,its just so nice being a kid.

Speaking of this,i'm already with my bie for 2 years,its happy and its great,i hope i can keep it that way,although some of the time spent was argueing with each other,but i'm still going on,keke...

One more semester and i'm done with my diploma,and 2 more years to go and i'm a working adult in the society,time is ticking really fast,leaving no trails behind..

I don't feel like working,i don't feel like studying,i just wanna go back to the old times,i miss high school,i miss childhood,all the good times...

i'm just reminiscing anyway....

Do you?

I'm free

2009-04-18T12:53:00.001+08:00

I'm free,finally....

one more sem to go and i can take a break from everything...

Good luck everyone...

see you fellows again next semester...

take care...

Soon

2009-04-17T13:08:00.001+08:00

My final exam is going to finish soon,and there goes my semester 6..
haha...
tomorrow will be my last paper,and also the nightmare...
i'm abit worried about it tho...
anyway,good luck to those who are taking it as well..haha

怨恨于他

2009-04-12T12:57:00.004+08:00

我已经渐渐的对“克莱门”失去了信任，
或许应该这样说，我从来都没曾信任他，
嘴说要帮我们，到头来还不是自己吭了那问题，
人们的工资都已入袋了，而我呢？还在痴痴的等待，真是TMD。
银行要调查此事，那又关我们的工资什么屁事？扣留那几百块会赚回那一万块吗？真是吃屎大的。
我的直觉告诉我“克莱门”已经知道这件事的决定了，但他不想帮我们而已。
我觉得真正有为员工着想的上司只有“KW”，不是说我故意要拍马屁还是什么，这真的是事实，
比起现在，以前好很多。
现在还来一个什么“邦”，他真的很讨人厌，从他嘴巴出来的都是色情的东西，对着他，我真的跟他没什么好谈，三个字“他很烦”。口口声声说大话，最终还不是走人。呸！！
这间店已没什么值得让我贡献于它。既然你不想帮我，我也不会帮你，整件店走人看你真么死！！
再见“CG”！！

WALKMAN X SERIES

2009-04-10T20:12:00.002+08:00

I want a walkman X series...
its so cool..i want it not because of cool,but its really useful and live up to my expectation from SONY's product,the sound quality is what i love the most compared to apple's(sorry for fellow apple fans.but its true..SONY's sound quality is far better than apple )..
I think that the price is "ngam ngam"(RM1299 for 16GB) because its using OLED touch screen,Digital Noise canceling earphone supplied,S-master digital amplifier..So,consider all the features it had,its not expensive at all..
I'm getting one if my pocket allows it..
check it out from the link below
http://www.sonystyle.com.my/promo/walkmanx.aspx

I'm relieved

2009-04-10T20:08:00.001+08:00

I'm relieved that i got >40 coursework marks for both JAVA and Internet Programming,
because i don't had to worry much on the final examination d,the only subject i'm worried is accounting,haha,but thats my fault also because i skipped the lab without attending it at all,lol..
so i just had to work hard on ACC,good luck for my friend who're taking Final Exam as well..
See you all again next semester..

奇迹

2009-04-02T23:35:00.002+08:00

世界上有奇迹这一回事吗？
无能为力的我只能等待奇迹的发生，
除此之外，我还能做什么呢？
人生充满无限的惊喜，但给我的惊喜却是我不想要的，
给我的惊喜却是一场悲剧，
悲剧我看得多，但它却意想不到的发生在我身上，
我只能笑中带泪，等待奇迹的发生。
我真的很倒霉。

Hoping for miracle

2009-04-02T17:09:00.003+08:00

What else can i do except hoping for a miracle?
I hope that it doesn't turn out like what i've thought..
I hope that miracles is here for me...
God Bless me...

Low battery

2009-03-31T21:14:00.002+08:00

I'm tired,been rushing project,studying for tests,and all that had to be done within this week..

What a coincidence..

I've been very very tired...

i just wanna have a good rest,thats all...

i'm having another test tomorrow,which is JAVA,i think its gonna kill me rather than i own it...

I'm gonna take a break...gonna update again when i feel like i wanted to..

Good luck to all of my friends...

Take care..

Final Examination

2009-03-28T12:56:00.002+08:00

My to do list for before Final Examination:-
-Stop games
-Complete my project A.S.A.P
-Study like mad cow for accouting
-Practice more on JAVA
-Study Study Study

its all about study basically,good luck to all of my friends who'll be taking the exam with me as well.
Cheers!!

Viewpoint towards the world

2009-03-23T02:49:00.003+08:00

What do you do when you're feeling empty?
What do you do when you're helpless?
Will someone just approach you and offer their help or companionship?
I guess not,i see the world as grey instead of black and white.With humanity getting more and more polluted,i guess they'll approach to stab you instead of helping you.I do understand that there are still good guys around,but they're just outnumbered..thats how i'll describe the current world or humanity..With so many fraud case,robbery,snatch thief,rape,drugs addict,and whichever you can think of,they're not getting better in terms of numbers of casses that happened,instead its getting worse every year,how are you gonna live in world like this?
Will someone correct the current situation?
Who will be the one to do so?God?i don't think so...
If the situattion do happended to be worsen,are you still brave enough to walk through an empty streets?
The world is grey instead of black and white,with the Malaysian's politic being so suck ass,corruption is all i can see within the current government,do you think that the PDRM are doing a good job?i think that they're doing a good job for roaming around and leeching people's hard earned cash....i'm hoping someone will be able to rectify the situation,i'm hoping for a hope to change,i'm hoping for a better tommorow....
i've seen hit and run cases,i've seen cheating an old lady's money,i've seen snatching a lady's handbag and ended up costing the life of the lady,does the world we lived in supposed to be like this?Does the humanity lost the sympathy that they used to have?
Does humanity lost their ability to think and rationalize something?
Are we still human if we're doing all these? These are the deeds of devil from what i can see..
i'm not trying to exxegerate the issue,but aint it true?
For the sake of our own,change the world for a better tommorow..
Change please..

Dream

2009-03-22T14:18:00.002+08:00

What should i do in order to achieve my dreams?
fast bike,big house,average car,and tons of cash of course...
I love sportbikes,very very much..
guess i'm gonna have to work my ass out in order to afford one of those,to me its a must..

All about them

2009-03-19T01:25:00.014+08:00

This post will be all about Didi and Fifi,
From the day i bought em till today,i'll post their photo up here..

the 1st day i brought em home,still so small..lol

(Quality is abit sucky)
See the one with the bigger eyes,see how small he is..

its him again....

Thats him NOW..sniffing around...

watch him on action!!

Enough about Didi,Now Fifi's turn!!
haha,

while she's chewing some romaine..

see,parsley!!her favorite!!

Caught her on action,snatching carrot away from my hand!!
lol..

Sharing is caring,they knew it too..haha

that's all for now..will post up more pics when i'm free..
anyway,a short video of them playing outside house(sorry for the lousy video quality)

Finally

2009-03-18T20:27:00.003+08:00

Finally,i've done my Critical Thinking assignment which will due on next week.What a relieve for me...phew,guess i can rest for quite some time before i get busy again..

I'll post up a few more post when i'm free..

Take care fellows...

What's left of me?

2009-03-17T21:54:00.002+08:00

Unable to understand,

Unable to comply,

Unable to feel...

I'm just so incapable,

I don't wanna waste another stuck within the shadow of my mistakes,

I'm half the man i thought i would be,

What's left of me?

On track or?

2009-03-17T21:31:00.004+08:00

Been very busy this while,spending my time with bie and Didi+Fifi and settling with my projects and assignment.Coming up tomorrow will be a Critical Thinking test,still not sure whether i'll be able to tackle the question or not as most of the questions are tricky questions.

I've been abandoned my gym training session for some times,gained additional spare tires.Hope i can get back on track as soon as possible. I'm worried about the accounting,i might do very badly due to my sucky attendance on the lab session(i've missed 10 marks if not mistaken),and i might screw up the class-assignment which i've done last week,i'm suck at accounting,hope i can improve on that particular subject,which is a must because FINAL EXAM is coming soon...

Why can't i be serious about my study?Why do i had to mixed up my playtime and study?

I just can't understand why am i behaving this way,i've always been hoping to get flying color's result,but only thinking of it without the action won't make my dream comes true,but that's me,i can hardly change that stupid attitude of mine,i'm wondering when i'll be able to change this stupid attitude of mine...When am i taking actions for the plans that i've made?I don't even know the answer....Some salvation please?Maybe i'm the only one that'll be able to save myself..

Cool Stuff

2009-03-09T00:37:00.004+08:00

Came across apple's website and downloaded this software(Safari 4 Beta),

its real cool,the interface made me "wOw".

they're quite speedy in terms of rendering the web page,or perhaps it depends on your hardware.

show off some of the screenshots below:

Top site feature

Cover Flow bookmark

When i'm with you

2009-03-06T23:49:00.000+08:00

Saw you walk in to the room
Thought i'd try to talk to you
Babe am i every glad you wanted me too
Its been two years to the day
half the time I've been away
i know I'm not there enough
but that is gonna change
cause I'm coming back
to show you that
I'm keeping the promise that i made

When i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you, whenever your not around
when i kiss you
i still get butterflies
years from now
I'll make every second count
when I'm with you

yeah we've had our ups and downs
but we've always worked them out
babe am i ever glad we got this far now
still i'm lying here tonight
wishing i was by your side
cause when i'm not there enough
nothing feels right
so i'm coming back to show you that I'll love you the rest of my life

when i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you, whenever your not around
when i kiss you
i still get butterflies
years from now
i'll make every second count
when i'm with you
when i'm with you

whatever it takes
im not gonna break the promise i made

when i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you

when i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you, whenever your not around
when i kiss you
i still get butterflies
years from now
i'll make every second count
when i'm with you

Dedicated to: Bie

Missing you

2009-03-05T07:21:00.003+08:00

Planned to update my blog yesterday as "people" keep asking me to do so,but i ended lying on my bed instead as i'm already half dead...reached my training place around 6.05,jogged and walked and sprinted till 6.50(with breaks in between of course),sir reached and training started at around 7.30..completed training at around 9.50,drove all the way back to BJ,bath and on the phone with my bie for a while,and zzzz...i can't really sleep well although i'm really tired,woke up for no reason on the middle of the night and sleep back,then 6.00 am totally woke up even i'm tired..argh,gosh...
Its been a few days since i last saw my bie,i'm missing her so much...
What to do?She's got so much homework to settle before she's free to find me..aiz..mean while i can only have fun with my two little babies,mentioning about em,their getting fatter and fatter since the day both of them joined my family,especially Didi,usually when i let him out i'll call him fatty instead of Didi.Whereas for Fifi,she gained not much instead being more naughty and cheeky,it'll be a pain in the ass to catch her and cuddle her or just to bath her as she just can't sit still...
i'll post some photo's of em when i'm free...

Something to rant

2009-02-26T16:15:00.002+08:00

With life being so fucked up,
With budget being so tight,
With reduced working hours,
With cash slowly getting lesser,
With dreams getting bigger and better,
With so little cash,
What else can i do?
What's the suggested solution?
Why the fucked up person always had to be me?
Everything is unfair,the world is unfair,
People who are weak are always in front of you no matter how hard you try,
Weak people are mostly being the most favorable person among others,
No matter how hard you climb,no matter what you've contribute,
You just won't reach the top,Except you're going the other way round(cheating?),
I'm going clean,I've given up,I'm falling....
Just let me fade to the background.....
The world is just so unfair...

Valentine's Gift

2009-02-14T01:36:00.002+08:00

Received my valentine's gift from my bie,i love em so much..(a POLO Explorer perfume and an ESPRIT hoodie)thanks alot bie bie....muaks..
Happy Valentine Day To you..keke...
Good Night and wishing everyone have a happy valentine day...

Hmmm...a little updates..

2009-02-12T21:46:00.003+08:00

I've found myself to be abit lazy this while,i've been overslept for a few classes,skipping classes that i don't wanna go...damn,and when i got back to the class,i've found myself to be very blur of everything.....especially my accounting and Java...

i'm getting more and more lazy...i've got tons of lab work,assignment,projects all piled up in front of and waiting to submit next week...

i'm having test next week,both are programming test which will definitely cause me to headache alot...damn it..

Valentine is around the corner,wishing all those who celebrate it enjoy it to the max...

i've got my darl a pair of rabbits which are adorable and naughty at the same time...they're both kept in my house(i;ve uploaded the pics previously),i can't afford to let them out often as they're getting more and more curious and like to explore every corner of my house..and it'll be very hard for me to catch em if they were to sneak into small corners...haha..

I've hurt my lower back during my training yesterday,and its hurting me whenever i bend down..damn...i slipped and fall onto the boat's seat..argh...such an unlucky event for me....

Anyway,going to clean em again after i got home as they got dried poo stick to their fur underneath their "ass"..lol..

Will update again once i'm free...

New Members

2009-02-11T01:12:00.003+08:00

I've got myself a pair of rabbit,they're so adorable,and they're only 3 month+..

they made me felt that i'm not wasting my time(by cleaning their poo and cage..lol)..

i'm so bored,my PC is downed,basically i can't do anything including torrent(cos mac is so slow when it comes to torrent-ing)...

ton's of assignment,lab work had been thrown upon me,but i'm not touching any of it...damn..

i've got to start working..haiz..

i'll be having a test tomorrow which is "critical thinking"(i guess its suitable for those who wanna be a lawyer)..this subject looks easy but its damn tough..argh!!!

anyway,i'll upload some of my rabbits photo below for those who wanna have a look..

and i'm heavily multitasking right now..zzz

grooming each other...haha

relaxing at my table...lol

while he's cleaning himself

multitasking...zzz

PC is downed

2009-02-09T00:48:00.002+08:00

OMG OMG OMG,my PC is down,all my homework,all my tutorial is gone..

i can't have access to it,damn it!!!

what's left with me is my bie's mac,which i can't do most of my things with it...

As in torrent-ing,my java's tutorial..

argh,its bothering me alot..damn it

Lifeless me

2009-02-01T02:38:00.003+08:00

I've always felt that i'm so lifeless(went to college,work,slack),
i'm feeling so miserable,i should have achieve at least something,or the very least,master some skill that proved to be useful for me in the future..the fact is,i've learned nothing nor achieve..
Each and everytime i said something,i won't take action,there will only be saying rather than action..
i feeling so useless..i'm tired,i wanna get a rest..but resting won't take me anywhere rather than giving me 0 income,when i think of that,i'll be like(aiz,work lar work lar..if din work no income..)..
I've got tons of wish list..
Upgrading my PC,getting me a xbox 360's controller,and the most important thing,to replace my damned handphone..its getting more and more irritating(as in directional aren't working well,the most basic function(end call button is not working as well),mic is not so clear and etc!!)i've been annoyed by this phone for like few months...wish to get a new one soon!!!
i'm gonna take action for what i've said...either work my ass out or drop dead...
there's nothing much i can write for now..
good night everyone...take care...

CNY Period's update

2009-01-31T13:18:00.002+08:00

As economy crisis is striking everyone in the globe,my additional income known as "red packets" also greatly reduce...haha..
But gambling with my relatives win me additional 50 bucks(what a suprise!!),even tho its not a big amount,but i'm still satisfied with it...
I think i'm gonna gain weight as well,been having steamboat for like few times a week,gonna get back on track next week...(been losing all my hard earned muscle...sob sob)
Anyway,this year's CNY is abit different as in i went for a movie with my bie(Underworld 3),and i've been sleeping real late for this week(mostly around 3++),awh...pimple is coming to see me again..sad...
Anyway,wish everybody have a prosperous chinese new year!!
For those who are away from hometown,take care and enjoy..and come back soon!!
GOOD LUCK FOR YOU AND FOR ME!!

PROSPERITY CHICKEN

2009-01-19T17:17:00.002+08:00

I just tried MCD's prosperity chicken and i'm suprised with the price..
It cost me RM14++ for a medium set including tax..damn it,
last year it was only like RM10+ including tax..
but the taste is not bad tho,just that the black pepper is damn spic/hot..
i can't stand it...
this will be the only and last time i ate it due to the price...
anyway....go try it out if you haven't....

Shattered hope

2009-01-19T17:10:00.002+08:00

Had you ever been given a hopeless hope?
I am..
i've been waiting for something that can't be confirmed,
because of all these,it gets me into a deep shit..
which i don't even know how to solve it?
Here's what i wanna say,if you can't confirm,please don't promise people..
You either kept the promise you made or settle it the other way round...
today is not my day,argh..

2009-01-18T00:51:00.002+08:00

I've been so lazy to update my blog since my new semester..
i've been busy with everything,my study,my work,my training...
time is never enough for everyone i guess...
Anyway,chinese new year is coming soon..hereby wishing those who celebrate chinese new year a prosperous CHINESE NEW YEAR...
while for those who are still asking for "Ang Pau"wish your pocket/bag is full of those!!
for me,i'm just wishing that i could spend less..and save more...
For no reason,i've been in love with mountain bike,yes "MOUNTAIN BIKE",they're just so cool...
you can pull off awesome stunts(of course you must have the skill),downhill race is so nice...
i'm loving it..but too bad,my darling restrict me from buying it..sad..well,it doesn't come cheap tho(3-4k at least!!)
i'm the kind that loves outdoor sport..i love nature,but i don't have the chance to explore the beauty of it..maybe i graduate from my diploma course,i'ma take a break for myself and go holiday...
location is still unknown tho..
anyway,good night for now..
i'll update again when i'm free..take care mates!!!

Updated

2009-01-04T16:13:00.002+08:00

Its been a while since i update my blog..
Its year 2009,what's my new year resolution?
spend lesser,save more!!
and..
of course,to upgrade my current PC to mid or near high end segment(gonna spend alot again..T_T)
college is reopening tomorrow,while i'm still in the holiday mood..god damn it..
hopefully i can graduate in time this year somewhere around septemeber..
anyway,i've got to go now..
will update again when i have the time..
take cares mate..

sicked

2008-12-27T00:36:00.001+08:00

I'm sicked....
been eating all the junk food,chips,instant noodles..
argh...
broke down finally...damn it..
need to get myself a good rest...
good night everyone..

Back

2008-12-22T22:40:00.002+08:00

Haven't update my blog for quite sometime d i guess...
Been busy with almost everything and i'm having insufficient sleeping hours as well...
i'm tired,but i'm happy cause it'll stop me from thinking other things..
9 more days to go before we step into 2009,time passes really fast,agree?
i've been wasting tons of my precious time...
i've should have been smarter,stronger,tougher instead i'm lazy,weak,and clumsy...
What to do?
Guess i'm gonna change all those crap during year 2009,hopefully i can do it..

Miserable day

2008-12-16T16:22:00.002+08:00

what a miserable day for me...

lost my video walkman,down,depressed,moody..

i'm really pissed..

why they can't keep their hand away from people's belonging?

steal people's thing and make yourself proud of owning that thing?

screw you and fuck off....

freaking thief..if i caught you on the spot,you're screwed...i swear i won't let you walk out of the store "nicely",i'm gonna make your hand broke even if i'ma lose my job..i just don't care...

i'm just really sick of everything...it just doesn't make sense that why you had to steal people's thing?

does it make you feel good?

whether its malay or chines or indian,screw you all..

go to your fucking hell and be punished by you freaking god!!

I lost my fucking walkman

2008-12-16T14:51:00.002+08:00

I lost my fucking walkman within my work place..

what a depressed day for me..

i'm only using it for merely a week,but then its gone..

fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm freaking pissed,i'm moody..

curse the fucking thief got bang by a car and internal squashed out..

motherfucker..

maybe its my fault after all,but i leave it in the counter,in the counter i stressed!!!!

damn it...

fuck it...i'm not getting any gadgets anymore..

curse all the fucking thief to death!!

Another tiring week

2008-12-16T01:01:00.002+08:00

I'm having off season training currently,although not as tiring as usual,but still it's tiring.
I've got to work my ass out to earn cash for my supplements,gym,dragon boat training..
what a mess...but i'm still be able to manage it...
i think i'm gonna get myself some joint support supplements as well as multivitamin,i've ignored these 2 important things..and eventually lead myself towards minor injuries..its better for me to prevent it rather than waiting it to become a serious matter..
i've bought myself a video walkman which i'm very happy with it although its an old model.
but who cares?its cheap by the way!!and tons of freebies!!
anyway,i think i'm gonna take a few day off before i get my supplements,hopefully next week i guess?
I'll be gone away from keyboard for the momment,good night everybody!!
and enjoy your holiday to the max for INTI students!!
Good Night and take care

Camera man of the day

2008-12-07T21:53:00.003+08:00

Today is the day where Penang Pesta Open Dragon Boat Race was held at Teluk Bahang Dam.
I'm the camera man of the day...whee!!
but i told myself,today i'm the camera man,next year i'll be the rower that's going to race!!
But the most unexpected is I've earned myself a medal even though i'm not rowing!!
My sir said "you deserve it,everyone in this team deserve this!!"
"singapore win us by oni a few inch!!"damn it!!!
i'm gonna train hard and earn my own medal next year!!

Weird thoughts

2008-11-30T18:03:00.003+08:00

I'm living a tiring life,
Trying to reach the top from the very bottom,
I'm trying to walk away,but i just can't,
With these little cash what can i do?
I'm trying to reach my goal,as far as i can,
Till i reach my goal,will i have sufficient cash?
Will i be able to reach my goal?
Little bit longer and i'll be fine,
I wanted to rest,I wanted more,
I wanted to act according to my feel,
Myself,personalize,feeling unrestricted...

问题

2008-11-24T22:53:00.002+08:00

每个人都逃不了,
每个人每天都会面对它,甚至到了死的那一天,
教练对我们说了一句"只要你肯看开,问题自然而然会解决",
我深信他所说的,但真的会那么的简单吗?
我也有问题,
我想成功,我想富有,
我想每样我所要买的都买得到,
但是,世界真的有免费的午餐吗？
我还真的异想天开了，
想要的必须先付出，才会有所回报。
今天的我崩溃了,我的膝盖好疼,全身无力,
但,
我还是撑了下去,我深信我绝对做得到,
原来,我真的不行了,我的膝盖真的很痛,
我必须休息以防我的膝盖受损,我真的很累，
好想好想躺在床上，好想不须顾虑一切，
我真的很想睡个好觉，我累了。
但是，休息完后的我又得拚了。
晚安。。

Fed up

2008-11-20T22:23:00.002+08:00

i'm really fed up with the training...
personally i prefer to train on my own as no people will crap around with me...
yea,you maybe right,but i have my own way of training,you can do it doesn't mean that you're right?
did you even research before you train?if not shut up...what we want is train smart,not train hard while you get nothing..
i've research alot,i've read alot of article,training more that what you're capable of is useless...whatever,whether you wanna listen or not its up to you..
i won't go again next time,for sure,i'll do it my own way...
don't ever tell me this and that while you can't do it...(lock your body,this shit and that shit..but can you even do it?shut the fuck up then...crap alot..but do nothing..fuck off alright?)
you all just wait and see,i do it my own way,my gains will definitely better that yours!!!training more just wont get you any higher or closer to your goal,your muscle will only end up being catabolise.
thats it,thats all i wanna say,i'm really fed up with all of you that had no knowledge against weight training....its not that i wanna say that i'm pro,at the very least i research about everything before i train....

Experience Maximum Control,Experience Black

2008-11-17T11:27:00.004+08:00

Sweet,phenom 2 is planned to strike on january...it looks cool..

if its great,gonna get it..

its been finalized as well..

nice right?so much headroom to Overclock!!

great right?reach 4Ghz even on air cooling..

finally,the DENEB is out next year,hope to get one if its not expensive..

GPU Transcoding with CUDA

2008-11-10T02:18:00.001+08:00

My experience with GPU transcoding using an overclocked 9600GT
it only lasted for 5 minutes+ whereas if i were to use CPU,that's gonna last me for at least 15 minutes+ for a 20 minutes AVI files..
the quality after transcoding is awesome..its very fast,Thumbs up Nvidia..Keep in up..(But ur current GFX card sucks..dominate the market again please!!)

Here's the screen shot of the process..

below is the completed screenshot..lol

Its fast aint it?
imagine pairing it up with a GTX 280...its gonna fly for sure!!

The pro' of this is its fast,the con is the limited support of codec which make it very annoying....

Supplement show off!!

2008-11-08T12:53:00.003+08:00

there goes my 1st show off ever...
my supplement that makes me looks better as well as much more confidence to take off my shirt!!
My Stacks are as below,but BSN's NO XPLODE is not recommended to combine with Lipo6 due the both of them contains alot of caffeine...
But still i took em as well...just make sure you drink alot of water...that'll do..
at least 120Oz per day..which is 3litter ++....
there goes my suppplement..
.
From the left is Optimum's 100% whey 5lbs(Protein powder),Nutrex's Lipo6 120 Cap(Fatburner),BSN's NO XPLODE(Pre Workout NO)....
all of em are great product...try em out if you're wiling to..

Me and You

2008-10-28T01:40:00.002+08:00

I picked up the pieces,
Swallow all my pride,
I don't know what i did,
I've got no excuses,
Just try to understand,
I can be your betterman,
Me and before,
If you're not that alone,
What am i supposed to do,
Say,
Say you won't give up on me,
If i woke up next to you,
I'll collect the bad habit you couldn't bear to keep,
A tree i used to lay beneath,with stained red teeth after kissed..
Baby,say you won't give up on me....

Good nite,
With love....

Nutrex's LIpo6

2008-10-26T01:41:00.003+08:00

Those who wish to burn fat fast,get extra energy,more focus,take this...no side effect,except you're gonna sweat alot in the 1st week,and weird feeling in stomach..thats it..after tolerance had been accessed,those side effects will be gone...
As the title stated, its the LIPO6 that i'm currently taking..contact me for more info as i can get the 120 capsule for a very reasonable price include shipping.
contact me for more info..

Progress report

2008-10-24T01:27:00.002+08:00

Yay..so happy to see that my abs are tighten after weeks of diet and exercise as well as supplements. 6 packs are starting to show,i'm really happy about that,all the money i've spent i think its worth it although its fucking expensive.But you have to sacrafice in order to get something right?
i'll post up my pic after i've got my very own 6packs..
now i'm still a newb..haha

Lame story

2008-10-22T13:34:00.003+08:00

I've been working my way up to have a "V-taper"back as well as abs of steel.After a few weeks of dosage of "LIPO6",it really works,my abs are not as flabby as previous,i'm able to suppress my appetite better.
My final examination is coming soon,i'm gonna work hard tho...sorry for not replying those messages in msn,sometimes i was away,sometimes i was real busy..
anyway "KW",you're confirm to leave d?and when are you leaving?i mean to KL?
i can't keep my promise as i need to save some pennies due to my training.I need supplements to keep myself in peak performance,haiz,needless to say,its all money money money...
i'm gonna stop working maybe next year...thats for sure as my college's system had change to 60/40 which is 60 course work and 40 exam...damn..despite of all these changes,it doesn't really bother me much tho,as my coursework mark is not always high....
anyway,that's all i have right now...will post a better one when i'm real free...
anyway,for those who are looking forward to shrred the fat off your abs or else where,take this supplement"Nutrex's Lipo6".Its really efficient,and furthermore,no side effects except you're gonna sweat alot(it'll be different from person to person).Highly recommended!!!

知道吗？

2008-10-12T10:51:00.002+08:00

手中的铅笔在纸上来来回回，
脑海中不停的浮现你的模样，
我已跌入了无底的爱情悬崖，
你的爱就像雨水般的洒向我，
院子里的落叶犹如我对你的思念，
此刻我只想亲吻你的脸，
你的爱无法令我的热情冷却，
相聚时间虽短，
但，你那可爱的脸蛋已烙印在我脑海，
我也会犹如太阳般的照着你，
时间过了，走了，
直到海枯石烂，我的心只属于你，
千言万语都叙说不了我的心，
我只会对你说我愿意，
说好的幸福会给于你，
浪漫的每一夜，幸福的每一天，
也只想与你渡过。

engaging in low fat mode

2008-10-11T13:18:00.002+08:00

engaging in a low fat,low carb diet mode...
i'm going to strive to achieve my target,
with the combination of extreme training,yes i mean it 4 hours of training from both land and water and 3 times a week,and of course the help of fat burners as well,
i guess i'm gonna get lean within weeks.
hope to see myself with a beach ready body...lol...
till then,see ya...

truth beneath the unrevealed mask

2008-10-10T01:35:00.002+08:00

i'm trying to make it better,
but i've screwed,
i'm trying to achieve,
but i've failed,
i'm trying overcome,
but i was consumed,
i'm awake,
but i'm blank,
i'm smiling,
but i wasn't,
i'm ignorant,
but i'm trying to change,
i'm giving all out,
but it's still not enough,
i'm feeling alright,
but i wasn't
i'm different
but i'm still human,
i'm sleeping soon,
but i'm still here awake.....

i'm not feeling right today,everything is coming too fast,i'm sitting my final exam again three weeks from now,piles of assignment had been thrown towards me,tests,exams,these things just can't stay away from my life till i left college.
i've been forced to accept,i've been lefted with no choice but to fight for the next few sems,its been a tough sem for me...
i've been laughing,i've been smiling,i've been doing many crazy things,
just to cover "those" beneath me,that's me,i'm different over here,i'm different in college,i'm different with my friends,i'm just different,but i'm still me with two brains and a heart..

Existence Proven

2008-10-05T12:40:00.005+08:00

Maybe i'll be gone any moment from now,
Maybe i'll live a long and dull life,
Maybe i'll be a CEO of certain company,
Maybe i wish that i was never brought to here in the first place,
Maybe it isn't deceiving,
Maybe i was crying alone yesterday,
Maybe it's just me,
Maybe love is not my thing,
Maybe i'll get annoyed easily,
But,
This is me,
my feeling will always be real,
my existence in this world is proven by someone,
my thoughts,my acts,my feel,are shared by someone,
i'm still me,
i'm still here standing,
how much i wished i'm proven that i'm good?
still i'm just me....

世界

2008-09-30T14:30:00.006+08:00

生活多姿多彩，人生自然快乐

世界将何时获得和平？

世界将何时从此根绝战争？

人何时会获得终极的快乐？

人何时会懂得珍惜？

我们将何时懂得三思而后行？

逃避并不能解决问题，

勇于面对问题才是解决问题的最佳方式，

过去的十八年让我体会世界的变化，

这世界真的变了，

无所不在的贪污，

腐败的政府，

严重的温室效应，

人们总是抵不过钱的诱惑，

钱将会永远都是恶魔，

可恶的你，可恶的我，

请合力阻止这些自私的行为，

拯救这悲哀的世界吧！！
语无伦次的我在此写了烂透了的文章，
也许这也算不上什么所谓的好文章，

也许我所写的都很烂，

但这些都是事实。

再会了，我也不知到要再写些什么。

稻香

2008-09-30T13:13:00.003+08:00

對這個世界如果你有太多的抱怨

跌倒了就不敢繼續往前走
為什麼人要這麼的脆弱墮落
請你打開電視看看
多少人為生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我們是不是該知足
珍惜一切就算沒有擁有

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡, 隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好

不要這麼容易就想放棄就像我說的
追不到的夢想換個夢不就得了
為自己的人生鮮艷上色先把愛塗上喜歡的顏色
笑一個吧功成名就不是目的
讓自己快樂快樂這才叫做意義
童年的紙飛機現在終於飛回我手裡
所謂的那快樂赤腳在田裡追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂給叮到怕了誰在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著風唱著歌睡著了
哦哦午後吉它在蟲鳴中更清脆
哦哦陽光灑在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切就算沒有擁有

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This song is very nice,listen to it..the lyrics is very meaningful.

thoughts

2008-09-28T10:48:00.005+08:00

Its been a while since i update my blog,i'm just being so lazy this few weeks,

there's only few weeks left for me prepare for my final examination,

i'm feeling so tired,yet i had to work and study,

i really don't felt like working anymore,but the reality forced me to do so,

if i'm not working,i'm not getting any cash,

i'll just had to cope with my study and my part time job,

but working does makes me felt that my time is worthwhile,

i was paid 6/per hour,

study will always be more important compared to job,

if you study well,work hard for your future,you might get a good job,

that's what i believe,

life is always tough.....

Suffering from Vista

2008-09-22T13:21:00.003+08:00

Gosh,I guess i'm going crazy if this things keep on going,
I'm suffering from Vista's slow torrent speed,
I'm going to switch back to XP in a few days time,
I'm really frustrated with the downloading speed in Vista,
Its really so annoying,it doesn't give me any problem,
it just gives me a very very slow downloading speed despite whatever tweaking i've done to the network,
its still the same,
In fact,vista is good,vista is fast,vista is stable,it doesn't cause any problems to me so far,
The only thing that makes me hate vista is,when i need to use P2P sharing..it really caused me alot of trouble going through all kinds of tweaking.
Anyway,i'm not sure if everyone is facing the same problem as me,
but,seriously,when i was in XP,i used default settings and they just worked fine.

Only One

2008-09-20T21:18:00.002+08:00

Have i ruined all you've given me?
I know i've been selfish,I know that i've been foolish,
I'll do better,I know i can,
Baby i'll be better,
Sometimes i stare at you while you're sleeping,
I listen to your breathing,
I listen to your heartbeat,
Don't you see that i'm not the only one for you,
But you're the only one for me.

Fall For You-Secondhand Serenade

2008-09-15T23:38:00.001+08:00

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Oohhh...

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
'Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find
===================================================================
A very nice song..go listen or download it..
nice lyrics as well..

Hatred within

2008-09-14T16:30:00.003+08:00

Again,another problem for me...
I seriously have no idea what is wrong with you?have i done anything wrong or bad towards you?
damn it,if yes just spit it out,why are you doing such a lame act towards me,sales high so what?
Ranking on the tops only makes people hate you more,i wasn't even concern about the sales,i'm just trying to being nice with you,and yet you did such stupid act.
Fine,i've had my mindset that you're not a friend of mine,at first yes,and i don't really give a damn for your fucking sales.
Go ahead and take all if you can bastard,you're capable of being rude so do i.
Oh yea,please keep the things that you taken out next time,don't take everything as granted bastard,people keep it for it doesn't means that they had to do it all the time..
You're really such an asshole.
I wasn't hating you all the while,but today you make me doing so...

You all might said that i was jealous because of the sales,but in fact i'm not..just say whatever you want towards me,i don't really mind anyway..

Switched

2008-09-13T12:56:00.002+08:00

I've switched to vista,what about you?
any vista user know how to mod the half open TCP connection?
as i've tried tons of way,google throughout the way,and caused my pc unable to boot up,
but its repaired using the vista's boot disc.
Anyone here to help?
i really can't find any solution to mod the half open TCP connection,the torrents are darn slow.

Everyone is Equal

2008-09-09T18:31:00.002+08:00

Its been a while since my last post,in this while,loads of thing happened around me,

What is wrong with the politic?What is wrong with Malaysia?

Seriously,i don't think that Malaysia is as peace as it used to be,

Racism issues are all around,we're equal no matter chinese,malay,indian.

Yea,i admit that i do hate Malays,but not all,not those who are nice,not those who are friendly,

I'm only hating those like rempit,causing trouble everywhere,and the stupid politicians.

Let's just hope that there will be a better one to take over during september 16.

Good Luck Anwar!!!

and Stop being RACIST!!!

Let love in

2008-09-03T02:38:00.003+08:00

What about now?
What about today?
What about poverty?
What can we do to help em?
What if we're one of them?
What if we're staying in the war zone one of them?
What if people are dying around us everyday?
Should we complaint that our food's not nice?
Should we complaint that we're always" poor"?
Should we complaint that there's no love around us?
If there's no love around us,what about those who're in the war zone?
Appreciate those around you,
Satisfied which what you have currently,
Settle down with you emotion right now,
If our life is bad,think about those in the war zone,
You won't feel that our life is bad,
We're just another lucky bastards out here,
Let love in,Let love shower them,
Help em with what we're able to.

Dedicated to those who always think that they're poor,unlucky
and those who think our current food sucks.

Good Night

Dedication to a new beginning

2008-08-30T15:22:00.002+08:00

I got my results few days ago,yea,its kinda late to write it here

the moment i saw my result,i was "stunned" because of something unexpected,

but i'm relieved that i passed all the subjects,

my grades are low,all i got is B,C, and d,i don't even have an A.

I'm gonna commit myself to study better next semester as i'm in Sem 5 currently,

i really played alot for the past few sems,

regret doing so....

{Off Topic}

its so boring right now,what can i do?

i'm not stressed out,i'm not having any problem,

maybe i just like to say boring,

but in fact,it is boring....

Advice please!!!

2008-08-30T11:25:00.004+08:00

Anyone can help me?
anyone here to advice me?
how can i save successfully?
i really need to start saving right now,
its real hard for me to save and me myself don't even know why?
once i see things,i'll start to spend,
how much i earn,thats how much i'm gonna spend,
gosh,i really need to stop doing so!!!
God,Help!!!!

You

2008-08-28T01:45:00.002+08:00

You look so beautiful today,
You're sitting there and its hard for me to look away,
You still feel far away although i'm here,
You're hearts still bleed even when i accompanied you,
Take a breath,
Pull yourself together until i reach for you,
I'm gonna take you away,
away from reality,
away from sadness,
towards endless happiness,
You're my love,
Take care and ignore any negative feelings,
Good night bie...xoxo

Do You Know?

2008-08-26T00:32:00.002+08:00

Do you know what it feels like?
Do you know how it taste?
Do you know i'm a human?
Do you know i'm born with emotions?
Do you know your words do hurt me?
Do you know i'm so sick of your attitude?
Do you think i want it?
Do you think i'm proud of it?
Do you think you're perfect?
Do you think you're good?
Do you know i don't wanna lose myself?
Do you want me to explode?
Can you stop saying all those words that hurt people?
You can do anything your mind set you to do,
but do you think of the feeling of the people around you?
People don't say a word doesn't mean they felt nothing,
they might smile towards you,but they felt something within,
Do you ever think of that?
I'm so sick of this....

脆弱的我

2008-08-25T00:42:00.003+08:00

今天的我,是如此的堕落,
谁会明白我的心情?
何为堕落?
脆弱的我渐渐的堕向无底的深渊,
我的心情仿佛碎裂的玻璃,
人是如此多情的动物吗?
人总是会胡思乱想吗?
摇滚音乐或许比较适合现在的我吧?
受过的种种委屈渐渐的回想起,
受惯委屈的我依然一声不哼,
批评指正,嘲笑,讽刺,我一一回想,
突然觉得想大声的谷出一切,
我总是如此的脆弱吗?
我还能像以往般喜笑颜开吗?
我真的厌倦了,这真的是我吗?
我只想好好的睡个大觉.晚安.

frustrated

2008-08-24T23:56:00.002+08:00

i'm so damn frustrated,i just wanna find someone to talk with,
end up nobody will willing to talk with me,
so,just forget about it,
being kind to people doesn't mean that that person will being kind to you as well,
life is tough,yes indeed,
with the little luck i have,what can i do?
i'm doing nothing,i'm just standing there the whole day,
watching people come and people go,
greet em,approach em,have a little conversation,then "boom",there he go..
i understand that not every one that come in will buy,but why the one that wanna buy doesn't come and find me?
am i bad looking?my appearance very bad?or what?
i'm just being so frustrated,my cash is already running low and i did work it out for it,
but why i'm not being paid off?
its not that i'm not working hard,i do,
but why?anyone here to tell me?
i just wanna save some money to spend on year end,
nobody is helping me out,i can't help myself out but to depends on the little luck i have,
skills,does it really matter?if that particular person don't wanna buy,will your so called skill make it buy?i guess no.It all depends,if the person is already wanted to buy,even you have no skill,
you're gonna close the deal as well.Skill doesn't really matter anyway,what's important are the products knowledge.
i'm just so frustrated today,nobody is talking with me,so i'm talking with my own pc,
i'm writting it out.
it's just me,its reality,everyone needs cash to live in this world,
don't you?
fuck it anyway...

fucked up day for me

2008-08-23T23:26:00.002+08:00

oh my god,i really ran out of luck i guess,
i'm just so god damn screwed,
holy shit,
JUSCO<---------o0o u
can't you be more responsible in placing your price tag?
you know what?they placed an 4 bucks bread under a 2.1 bucks category,
i was then "cheated".
today is really not a day for me,
wandering around the shop for like 12 hours and got a RM68's sales,
which is totaly no commission for me,
oh my god,i'm really wondering why am i so screwed?

I'm just so fucked up right now...

Bored to the max

2008-08-23T21:40:00.003+08:00

Gosh,working is so damn boring,

You're not killing the time instead the time kills you,

gosh,in addition to you're not having any sales,

oh my god,i really have no idea why am i working since i'm not selling,

am i out of luck?

or i'm just suck?

oh,anyway,fuck it..

i really need cash anyway,how am i gonna get cash when i'm not selling?

oh my fucking god,somebody help me please..

extra incentives please,extra wages please,

i've been working for like more than half year without a raise in my hourly wages,

oh my god,i'm just wondering am i suck or what?

i'm just feeling i lose the mood to work,i've been paid lower than previous company,i'm just wondering why i'm working over here?

but,forget it..since i have more flexible working hour over here,maybe that's a compensation to the lowered wages.that's what i guess?

cash,when are u gonna come to me?

i wonder any single human in the world is not bothered by this "cash"?

i really doubt that...

i'm really been troubled by this "cash" for quite some time,

i really hope to settle it ASAP..

God damn it..

Anyway,that's all i wanna say..

i'm not flaming,i'm not complaining,

i'm not blaming anyone

i just wanna shout out everything.

第一次(lame post)

2008-08-23T00:25:00.004+08:00

哈哈，
这是我的第一次在此用华文写＂blog＂,
毕竟也是第一次吧，给些面子好吗？

世界是如此的巨大，
上天却让我遇见你，
是你让我的生命充满希望，
是你的用心令我感动，
也许我真的不值得你对我如此的用心良苦，
我也无法描述你有多爱我？
然而你也默默的为我掉下无数的泪水，
当我问及此事，你却对我微笑回答＂没有事啦＂
偶尔我也忽略了你，真的对不起．
感谢您对我的付出，
感谢你对我的好，
argh..forget it..damn..
i really have no idea on how to write it?
anyway..i just wanted to say,
i'll do the same for you like what you did for me,
you're the brightess star that'll always shine high upon the sky,
you're the only one and only deserved a place in my heart,
you're the one that make me go crazy when you gone missing,
you're my only one,this short sentence is dedicated to you,
i'm just being lame in writing mandarin,
i don't really have any idea on how to make it artistic.
anyway,we're getting sugar glider soon,
hope that it'll make us much more entertained and happy throughout our day,

kimi o aishiteru
愛してる

Your Love,

Cute right?

2008-08-22T23:28:00.003+08:00

omg...here's the little cutie thats gonna become my family member and blend into part of my rest next month,its so cute right?
wonder why some people said its ugly?
maybe you have a bad taste? or you just don't like exotic pets?
lol..
anyway...gonna post more photo of her after i'm getting one..
yea..its her,i'm gonna get a pair of hers...

Broken Barrier

2008-08-19T00:32:00.002+08:00

This moment has come to me finally,my rock hard barrier had be broken down,
tear rolled out from my eyes for the 1st time i being with her,
your words are as sharp as those sword that it plunge through my heart,
i'm sorry that i've made you cry,i don't really mean anything,
but your words really pierce through my heart and it hurts,
i may not be the best man in the world,i'm sorry and i didn't blame you as well,it was
my fault after all.

(off topic)
Today is not my day,everything bad keep coming towards me,
ate a stupid cake at mamak,the so called famous "bloodsucker shop" "KAYU",
i was like wtf?just a small piece of vadai and it cost me RM 0.80?i can get it for RM0.30 or RM0.40 outside,damn..
today is really not my day..i'm just so fucked up about the food.

I'm back

2008-08-17T16:01:00.002+08:00

Woo hoo,i'm back after a crazy examination week,
tomorrow onwards,i'm going to work after then after finish i'm ma go gym,
i wish that i could have a leaner and healthier body,
wish that i could achieve it,
anyway,back to the topic,yea i'm back,
i'm here once again...
guys and girls,enjoy your holiday if you're having holiday...
phew,i'm so freaking boring at home right now,
gosh,gonna go youth park for a jog later...
anyway,enjoy your two week holidays INTI College's student.
ENJOY!!!!

The Beginning

2008-08-12T22:38:00.002+08:00

Holy shit,its the beginning of my Final Examination week
oh damn,one paper had done,don't think that i'm gonna score anyway..
haha..wish me luck,
studying for SAD now
its not sad,its system analysis and design,but it really turn out to be sad...
lol..
Good luck guys and girls...

Its near

2008-08-09T12:52:00.002+08:00

Oh my god....counting down for my final exam is 3 more days..
damn..and i haven't really prepare for it although i did go through abit..
oh crap...i'm just being so lame..
dammit....is this really me?
Yea..its me,i've being behaving like this since i was in the Primary..lol..
but i still can make it i guess..
I'm used to the situation i've been facing right now...
Crap,i really gotta move my big bad ass,or else i'm gonna fail and disappoint my family...
For god's sake,go study...
Mean while,good luck to all my mates...
Hope you all will get results with flying colors....
Good Luck and hope to see you all again next semester...
I must make it..

You

2008-08-08T18:30:00.002+08:00

You,got me thinking all night long,
You,believed me in every single lie,
I was waiting for the day you come around,
I was chasing but nothing was all i've found,
From the moment you've came into my life,
You've show me what's right,
I never felt like this before,
Just when i leave,i'll be back for more,
In these ever changing days,
You're that one thing that remains,
I wish i could stay like this forever....

Creativity?

2008-08-08T00:32:00.003+08:00

haha...i'm so into photo editing nowadays even i have not enough time.
haha...i've uploaded one of my beginner production..haha..
i felt that its nice..lol...
comment for me please...lol

it looks nice on MAC...maybe because of my calibrated LCD...
it does look nice on windows as well...but not that nice...lol..
comment please for a beginner...lol..

i'm stil awake

2008-08-05T02:47:00.002+08:00

i'm still awake with thoughts in my mind,
what am i thinking?
i just can't sleep,
many things had been troubling me,
desires to buy something,people,studies,future planing
all this causes me headache,
when it comes to my sweet bed time,
these things just cant keep away from me,
it just keep on coming,
sigh,i'm such a problematic teenager,
what happen if i'm a grown up adult?
will i have more things to concern?
sigh.....
i wanna take a break,i wanna runaway,i want solutions
anyone?
i'm tired,i'm torned,i'm stressed to the max....

farewell my friend

2008-08-05T00:36:00.004+08:00

Good Bye once again from me to you,
Time passes very fast,
within the one month that you came back,
we didn't really hang out that much,
but still we hang out often lol,
anyway,last night was really a great night for us old friends,
you shouldn't have missed it,
we chit chat throughout our way in my home till 6 o clock in the morning,
it was a suprise tho,
anyway,if you happen to come back again this year end,do join us "kap siao" till the morning,
we haven't done that for quite sometimes,
if i'm not mistaken,we done that often at kok yang's house during high school,
it was a nice experience i have with you guys,
after i graduated from high school,i seems like lost contact with others or they just vanish somewhere else,
but i'm still contacting with both you and kok yang,
both you and kok yang are really a nice friend of mine,
i really appreciate both of u being my friend
take good care of yourself at brisbane noobie,
see u again if u happens to come back this year end,
will miss you alot,take care and have a safe journey tomorrow.
Good Night.....

Point Of View

2008-08-03T00:47:00.002+08:00

Everyone in this world think differently,do things differently,
Its up to how you wish to accept the facts or events that come upon you,
Are you gonna accept it with a positive thinking instead of a negative one?
Let's took an example of scenario that happened to me before,while i was having
Biology class during my high school,when the teacher discuss about a chapter with reproduction and there's something like the male's reproduction system as well as the female.Some female student are very shy during that particular chapter,whenever i wanted to discuss or ask them something,they'll said that i'm pervert.
I was like,"what the fuck?are you ok?".Seriously,i don't really understand certain people,my current college classmate,a female one,i think that she's very open..its not like i'll talk anything to her,it was like,she's sporting..anything u thrown at her,she'll throw it back to you..anything,good or bad,if u happened to scold her with vulgar words,she would do that as well...
I love this kind of people,they're outgoing,they're open,and they can accept anything...
Maybe certain people thinks that too open is not good,but if you're not open,how are you gonna learn new things?
Basically,i'm a open minded guy,you can share almost anything with me..
Anything..that you can think of..lol
Anyway,i'm still staying even though its already late..argh,i need to have a good sleep,i've been lacking good sleep since few days ago...awww,i miss it...
Anyway,good night everyone and try to be open..socialize more...
Good Night and happy reading through my boring post...

i'm relieved

2008-08-02T16:55:00.002+08:00

Cool,finally i'm relieving...
yea,i am..lol
but within that particular one week,i'm gonna prepare for my Final Examination,
this time i'm gonna score,yea,i want to..but not sure whether i'll make it or not?
anyway,i'm feeling extraordinary good cause i'm relieved...that feeling is nice,u feel yourself very loose,you don't have to worry about anything...hope i'll always stick to this state within my mind..lol
i hope so..but in this world,everyone is worrying bout something except the newborn child(or maybe they were thinking,just that we don't understand em?).I went to bed right after i came back from my college's event.i was so damn tired due to rushing assignment yesterday nite.
Anyway,enjoy your weekend guys...

Hardware Freako

2008-07-30T14:40:00.002+08:00

Oh my god,
i'm slowly realizing that i've become one of those who loves hardware so much,
i've been reading review day and night,
i've been searching and comparing prices everywhere,
i love em....
oh my god....the performance and the temptation of owning it attracts me so so much,
damn it....
its so tempting...
oh crap...you're having your Final soon YeeWei...stop thinking all this crap....
argh...damn....

Depressed

2008-07-28T20:32:00.004+08:00

I'm sick of everything..
Stop annoying me..
i'm sicked of you,i'm sicked of me,i'm sicked of the tension...
Why everything is causing me trouble?
Education,Cash,Emotions....
Damn,i just cant get a hold of myself...
I wanna runaway..
I wanna be in another place,
I need a place to rest...
Fuck everything...Fuck Me...Fuck Off...Fuck this..Fuck That..
I'm sicked of this life.....