I'm down

It's so damn boring these few days.Although I got lots of stuff to do,but I don't seems like I'm in the mood of doing it.
Haiz,suddenly I felt so down,I don't know why,money problem?I guess so,but that's not the main reason.
Boring makes me feel emo,and I don't like being emo,I felt like driving around the island,I know that I might sound crazy?but that's what I did when I was emo.
Sometimes when u're trying to chat with other people,they tend to ignore u or just reply a few words,I hate that.
Eveything is so not right!
What can I do?what should I do?
I miss the old time where I used to hangout with my
mates,although we lived in the same island,but we don't seems to contact each other that much like we used to,or totally don't conact each other at all.
New friends seems cool,but after chated for like few times,the tend to ignore u as well.
Is it the way I talk got some serious problem or what?or is it the problem of other people??
I don't know,I'm not good in those good nor best friend thingy.
I don't have a good friend to talk with,I only had a good gf tht would share the stuff that I carried on my shoulder.
Still,friends and girlfriend is totally two different things.Some topics u only say it to your gf,some you only say it to your friend.
I don't know whether I have serious communication problem or what??
Am I too cocky?or I'm being too friendly?
Today I'm just so down,not in the mood of doing anything.

Its been a while

Its been a while since my previous post. Life's been so tough on me lately,with so few pennies with me,but there's loads of stuff that i gotta spend for.Its unfair,as always,life is always unfair.
I just broke down,i'm trying to put myself back together.
All that i'm after is the life that's full of laughter,but life's been so dull to me lately.
But i believe that there people out there who still cared for me,my bie,my friends.Thanks to bb, thanks to khing!
i believe that life after this will be much better,full of laughter...
Those who think that life's been tough on them,which i'm one of them as well should consider that there's more people out there which their condition is far worst than us.
i felt grateful for my life but in the same time i hate the way it is.

Annoying people

Yesterday some stupid yet annoying shit happened to me.

b.manager : "what the hell is happening just now?why you behave so unconvincingly towards the customer?why you're unable to close the sales?"

my reaction was like "what the fuck is wrong with this guy?"

me : "customer was asking for headphones that can be used for skype,i introduce to her DR115DP, and she browse for a while and asked me for more information and i answered her,and she said she will go gurney to browse for more choices before purchasing."

b.manager : "why you always like that wan?as long as the headphone with microphone jack will compatible with all laptops or desktop"

i kept quite and i walked away,of course i know that,i'm not 白痴 ok?

its ridiculous isn't it? not even the GM screwed me when i'm unable to close a deal,yet this stupid people who get paid for nothing said me for this small matter. His job is basically coming late to job,facebook,msn,PS3..thats it..

another funny matter is,i was doing the SONY TIME MAGAZINE holder,he asked me to do it,and i was looking for a way to do it,and he come to me and asked me,"know how to do or not?i said agak agak la,"he answer how can agak agak wan?let me do lar,all i do lar easier...he went back there and took around 10 minutes to figure it out while another assistant manager of mine almost completed the holder...

There's much more ridiculous things about him,i just don't wanna mention it anymore..its all "no road".

Understand This(retrieved from an article)

人之所以痛苦，在于追求错误的东西。
如果你不给自己烦恼，别人也永远不可能给你烦恼。
因为你自己的内心，你放不下。
好好的管教你自己，不要管别人。
你随时要认命，因为你是人。
这个世界本来就是痛苦的，没有例外的。
你什么时候放下，什么时候就没有烦恼。
每一种创伤，都是一种成熟。
当你烦恼的时候，你就要告诉你自己，
这一切都是假的，你烦恼什么？
根本不必回头去看咒骂你的人是谁，
如果有一条疯狗咬你一口，
难道你也要趴下去反咬他一口吗？
忌妒别人，不会给自己增加任何的好处。
忌妒别人，也不可能减少别人的成就。
永远不要浪费你的一分一秒，去想任何你不喜欢的人。
得不到的东西，我们会一直以为他是美好的，
那是因为你对他了解太少，没有时间与他相处在一起。
当有一天，你深入了解后，
你会发现原不是你想像中的那么美好。
这个世间只有圆滑，没有圆满的。
不要刻意去猜测他人的想法，
如果你没有智慧与经验的正确判断，
通常都会有错误的。
你要感谢告诉你缺点的人。
时间总会过去的，让时间流走你的烦恼吧！
不要因为小小的争执，远离了你至亲的好友，
也不要因为小小的怨恨，忘记了别人的大恩。
感谢上苍我所拥有的，感谢上苍我所没有的。
当你手中抓住一件东西不放时，你只能拥有这件东西，
如果你肯放手，你就有机会选择别的。
人的心若死执自己的观念，不肯放下，
那么他的智慧也只能达到某种程度而已。
如果你能够平平安安的渡过一天，那就是一种福气了。
多少人在今天已经见不到明天的太阳，
多少人在今天已经成了残废，
多少人在今天已经失去了自由，
多少人在今天已经家破人亡。
恶口永远不要出自于我们的口中，不管他有多坏，
有多恶。你愈骂他，你的心就被污染了，
你要想，他就是你的善知识。
你不要常常觉得自己很委曲，你应该要想，
他对我这样已经很好了，这就是修行的功夫。
世界原本就不是属于你，因此你用不着抛弃，
要抛弃的是一切的执著。
万物皆为我所用，但非我所属。
学会用理解的，欣赏的眼光去看对方，
而不是以自以为是的关心去管对方。
成熟的人不问过去；
聪明的人不问现在；
豁达的人不问未来。
发光并非太阳的专利，你也可以发光。
你可以用爱得到全世界，你也可以用恨失去全世界。
爱的力量大到可以使人忘记一切，
却又小到连一粒嫉妒的沙石也不能容纳。
人总是珍惜未得到的，而遗忘了所拥有的。
如你想要拥有完美无暇的友谊，可能一辈子找不到朋友。

Minor arguments

Arguments always exist in a relationship aint it?
if couples doesn't argue,does that even count as being in relatioship?
If problem exist,solve it then.
If problem continue to persist,find a good solution for both then.
No matter how pathetic i am,no matter how plan-less i am,no matter how doubful are you towards me,i'm still the one that loved you all the time.
I'll be the one that always cover your back,i'll be your only driver,i'll be your only partner to argue with.
I'll always be the one for you.

*EXCEPT you're trying to dumb me off.

内心世界

内心的世界里匿藏着痛苦及疲累的我，渐渐的走向了绝望，
我觉得我拥有一切，其实，我是一无所有，
我好累，我真的好想抛弃一切，但是我却想起了你，
我只想拥有属于我们的空间，毫无拘束。。
此刻，我心里只想起你。
对不起，我的过错，令你掉泪。

New Environment

I've started to work in the new company since last wednesday,everything is fine except for one thing,i can't really get along with one colleague.
I'm not really sure what's wrong with him or me?Is it that i've done anything wrong or else,i'm really sure what's his problem anyway,since the 1st day at work,i've tried to talk to him and he's like being so ignorance,i was like what the fuck,so rude?Fine,i guess i'm 1st day at work so i can't really comment much on this.
But after working for like one week over there,things are not improving either,just now i said to him "Wah,so early eat rice d?",i was talking in front of him,and he acted like i wasn't there and he kept quiet,i was like what the fuck?am i invisible,fine..i'll just fuck off then,i'm really pissed with this kind of attitude,i duno what's wrong with him anyway,it's like people is trying to befriend and he acted so strangely.Don't really know what's going on,just fuck it.Not making friend with one person in the shop doesn't gonna make any difference.So just fuck off.
I'm getting along with others of course,just him,not really sure what's his problem,or perhaps mine,but i'm new overthere,what can i do to pissed him off?
Not really sure,anyway,just fuck it.
Anyway,the working environment is not bad except there's alot of "seafoods" around,but luckily they're not on the ground floor.I'm still in SONY,but different employer.Still not bad just that working hour is longer compared to my previous employer,but who cares?as long as its better than the previous one,i'm really fine with it,since i'm so free right now.Staying at home makes me rot,but working makes me miss my home's bed so much,and my PC of course,hehe.
I've been so lazy to blog recently,will update when i feel like i wanted to.
Cheers!!

What to do

what should i do?
i really don't get it,why do you had to act emotionally everytime?There's always a solution to everything right?But instead you had to get mad,slam things,talk pathetically,what is wrong with you?
i tried to kept quiet,but you're still doing it..Blame it all on me then,i shouldn't have bought it at the 1st place, i shouldn't have brought it to your house,i shouldn't have to do all this shits that day at the pet shop to made you happy.Its just so pathetic.
You can't cool yourself down,fine..i kept quiet,but you're still acting the way you are,i so pissed off that moment.That's why i don't feel like talking,i don't feeling saying anything,i don't feel like saying sorry anymore..
i'm tired of apologizing..
Clear your mind before you talk to me,as today will be the day that i'll act cruelly.I don't give a damn anymore..Just clear yourself before you talk to me..

Its alright

Everything is alright,everything is solved.
I hope there will be no more misunderstanding between us,
I hope we'll always remain the same,no arguments,loving each other..
It really hurt so bad,i understand that feeling,i can barely sleep because of that..
but everything is alright now,i'm relieved,i'm happy,i'm relaxed...
i'm really happy that i'm with you once again,no more tears will be drop by you for me..
thanks for everything you've done babe,i love you..
everything will be alright,everything will be ok,just a little bit longer and we'll be fine..
Good Night!!

I'm still awake

Its 5.40 am in the morning and i'm still awake.I don't really know what's going on with me?
Thoughts keep floating within my mind,but its unclear..
I really wanna sleep,i just wanna have a good rest after countless night of stupid web programming project..
What can i do?I need to sleep..

Backup

Now i realize that how important was backing up all your files. I'm really regret that i don't really backup my project's files till now,until i accidentally deleted it moments ago,damn it..
It was freaking important to me,i can graduate or not it all depends on it,FUCK!!!
Now i'm trying to recover it using a software called "Recuva",i hope that it can really help me,else my documentation is all gone..God bless me..
i'm really worried about it..
If it's able to recover,i'll definitely back it up in my pendrive..haiz

mentally tired

When you can't really express yourself,how do you feel?

I feel so bad that it bothers me alot.I don't wanna argue over this matter anymore.

Lacking trust towards me makes you think so,if you really trust me,do you really think that way?

I've been so tired,i've been very stressed..

I don't wanna argue over this matter anymore,i'll settle this matter...

I'm just very tired....

Just left me alone,don't ask me why...

i felt i'm six feet under the edge..

TorrentFlux

I just subscribed this service last night,i can say that its awesome.It helps you to save electricity by using their server to download,what else so great about it?It doesn't cap the download speed like Tmnet do,the server itself is running on gigabit port..i attached a screenshot below,please have a look..its really great!!just to share with you guys who are 24/7 p2p downloader..you just log into your account and upload torrent to the server,then the server will do the job.

attached screenshot


Another screenshot,ftp from the server to my PC
running at fullspeed(that's why i subscribe this service)



see,its great right?
in only one night,or less than 24 hours,i've already downloaded 12GB worth of files using their server,now i'm transferring the files back to my PC.
I guess you guys should try it out.
Enjoy!!

Update

i think i've ignored my blog for like ages...haha...guess its time to update it..been really busy this while..

My bunny gave birth to 7 babies and now its only one left..sob sob..but the one and only is growing and i hope it'll be as healthy as their parent..guess what?he/she(i'm still unable to determine the sex) is cute,cute in the sense of the way it act,the way it sleep..i just can't let go of it,haha...
June 30th was my bie's birthday,and we had a meal at chilis and it was awesome.I really enjoyed it very much.i hope she felt the same too..
3rd of July was my birthday as well,which is yesterday..guess what?i'm doing nothing except going for dragon boat training,but i've been treat a meal earlier which is on thursday,i enjoyed it as well.Thanks bie bie..
I'll upload some photos when i'm free.

Get well soon

I wished that i can get well soon,been bothered by fever,headache,vommit for days...
its so suffering,wish i can get rid of all the symptoms real soon..
i'm feeling so sick,i just don't know whats wrong with me..
haiz..

Random

Its been a while since i update my blog,i've upgraded to Microsoft's new OS which is Windows 7.

Its quite nice,under the hood,it had improved alot including USB transfer speed,Hdd's transfer speed as well.

I'll post up this screenshot below:
ps: don't laugh at my system's spec!!

That's all for Window 7's screenies

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Off Topics

Went to bukit merah with my bie and friends last week,its a nice trip and i enjoyed it so much.

The only thing that stop me from getting the most fun is the i only get to play a few attractions only,due to most of the nice attractions are being closed of for maintenance(thats what i heard from the staff),and its really annoying,cause without these few rides,its like meaningless..haha

Anyway,i won't be having classes from monday till thursday,which i consider everyday is holiday for myself,lol..But,i'm taking Final Year Project,so i guess there won't be much holiday for me as well..haha..

Anyway,good luck to all of my friends who started their new sem,for those who failed,try your very best next time!!

Good luck and take care...

Pointless

Its pointless being a nice guy,its pointless to contribute anymore,

what do i get in return from the past contribution?I held clean records,I've sold tons of stuff,I've worked my ass out the momment you're lack of manpower.

In return i got my salary being hold,pay me back near the month end which is today,but not in full amount,what the fuck is wrong with you?

I've lost the spirit,one mistake and it cost me that,all the contribution doesn't comes into consideration..its pointless being there anymore,without the presence of me,it'll still operate well i guess...
Its pointless being a good guy,there's nth you'll get in return..This is the world,the materialistic world..Human,is so materialized...

For the top management people,will you understand the pain or feeling of the lower subordinates?

All you care about is your fucking income,your fucking profit,do you really care about your staff?

I don't think so....to be able to get your fucking income,you need us as well..without us,will your fucking so called succesful shop front be able to sell anything?

I'm freaking piss,I just want my money back,thats it..

I don't give a shit about the freaking investigation....

Just gave me back my money,,,,

New

Everything is so new to me,

Its so different,

but its better compared to previous,

Slowly adapting,Slowly evolving,

It is low,but its nice and fun,

no more emptiness,

no more sorrow,

no more worries,

no more empty,

Its just so new...

Reminiscing

Time passes really fast,i'm already a 20 years old guy,

Few days ago,i was looking at the photo when i was a kid,thinking back of the old times felt so good,

because i don't have to worry about anything,no money issues,no conflicts,no pressure,its just so nice being a kid.

Speaking of this,i'm already with my bie for 2 years,its happy and its great,i hope i can keep it that way,although some of the time spent was argueing with each other,but i'm still going on,keke...

One more semester and i'm done with my diploma,and 2 more years to go and i'm a working adult in the society,time is ticking really fast,leaving no trails behind..

I don't feel like working,i don't feel like studying,i just wanna go back to the old times,i miss high school,i miss childhood,all the good times...

i'm just reminiscing anyway....

Do you?

I'm free

I'm free,finally....

one more sem to go and i can take a break from everything...

Good luck everyone...

see you fellows again next semester...

take care...