I'm down

It's so damn boring these few days.Although I got lots of stuff to do,but I don't seems like I'm in the mood of doing it.
Haiz,suddenly I felt so down,I don't know why,money problem?I guess so,but that's not the main reason.
Boring makes me feel emo,and I don't like being emo,I felt like driving around the island,I know that I might sound crazy?but that's what I did when I was emo.
Sometimes when u're trying to chat with other people,they tend to ignore u or just reply a few words,I hate that.
Eveything is so not right!
What can I do?what should I do?
I miss the old time where I used to hangout with my
mates,although we lived in the same island,but we don't seems to contact each other that much like we used to,or totally don't conact each other at all.
New friends seems cool,but after chated for like few times,the tend to ignore u as well.
Is it the way I talk got some serious problem or what?or is it the problem of other people??
I don't know,I'm not good in those good nor best friend thingy.
I don't have a good friend to talk with,I only had a good gf tht would share the stuff that I carried on my shoulder.
Still,friends and girlfriend is totally two different things.Some topics u only say it to your gf,some you only say it to your friend.
I don't know whether I have serious communication problem or what??
Am I too cocky?or I'm being too friendly?
Today I'm just so down,not in the mood of doing anything.

Its been a while

Its been a while since my previous post. Life's been so tough on me lately,with so few pennies with me,but there's loads of stuff that i gotta spend for.Its unfair,as always,life is always unfair.
I just broke down,i'm trying to put myself back together.
All that i'm after is the life that's full of laughter,but life's been so dull to me lately.
But i believe that there people out there who still cared for me,my bie,my friends.Thanks to bb, thanks to khing!
i believe that life after this will be much better,full of laughter...
Those who think that life's been tough on them,which i'm one of them as well should consider that there's more people out there which their condition is far worst than us.
i felt grateful for my life but in the same time i hate the way it is.

Annoying people

Yesterday some stupid yet annoying shit happened to me.

b.manager : "what the hell is happening just now?why you behave so unconvincingly towards the customer?why you're unable to close the sales?"

my reaction was like "what the fuck is wrong with this guy?"

me : "customer was asking for headphones that can be used for skype,i introduce to her DR115DP, and she browse for a while and asked me for more information and i answered her,and she said she will go gurney to browse for more choices before purchasing."

b.manager : "why you always like that wan?as long as the headphone with microphone jack will compatible with all laptops or desktop"

i kept quite and i walked away,of course i know that,i'm not 白痴 ok?

its ridiculous isn't it? not even the GM screwed me when i'm unable to close a deal,yet this stupid people who get paid for nothing said me for this small matter. His job is basically coming late to job,facebook,msn,PS3..thats it..

another funny matter is,i was doing the SONY TIME MAGAZINE holder,he asked me to do it,and i was looking for a way to do it,and he come to me and asked me,"know how to do or not?i said agak agak la,"he answer how can agak agak wan?let me do lar,all i do lar easier...he went back there and took around 10 minutes to figure it out while another assistant manager of mine almost completed the holder...

There's much more ridiculous things about him,i just don't wanna mention it anymore..its all "no road".

Understand This(retrieved from an article)

人之所以痛苦，在于追求错误的东西。
如果你不给自己烦恼，别人也永远不可能给你烦恼。
因为你自己的内心，你放不下。
好好的管教你自己，不要管别人。
你随时要认命，因为你是人。
这个世界本来就是痛苦的，没有例外的。
你什么时候放下，什么时候就没有烦恼。
每一种创伤，都是一种成熟。
当你烦恼的时候，你就要告诉你自己，
这一切都是假的，你烦恼什么？
根本不必回头去看咒骂你的人是谁，
如果有一条疯狗咬你一口，
难道你也要趴下去反咬他一口吗？
忌妒别人，不会给自己增加任何的好处。
忌妒别人，也不可能减少别人的成就。
永远不要浪费你的一分一秒，去想任何你不喜欢的人。
得不到的东西，我们会一直以为他是美好的，
那是因为你对他了解太少，没有时间与他相处在一起。
当有一天，你深入了解后，
你会发现原不是你想像中的那么美好。
这个世间只有圆滑，没有圆满的。
不要刻意去猜测他人的想法，
如果你没有智慧与经验的正确判断，
通常都会有错误的。
你要感谢告诉你缺点的人。
时间总会过去的，让时间流走你的烦恼吧！
不要因为小小的争执，远离了你至亲的好友，
也不要因为小小的怨恨，忘记了别人的大恩。
感谢上苍我所拥有的，感谢上苍我所没有的。
当你手中抓住一件东西不放时，你只能拥有这件东西，
如果你肯放手，你就有机会选择别的。
人的心若死执自己的观念，不肯放下，
那么他的智慧也只能达到某种程度而已。
如果你能够平平安安的渡过一天，那就是一种福气了。
多少人在今天已经见不到明天的太阳，
多少人在今天已经成了残废，
多少人在今天已经失去了自由，
多少人在今天已经家破人亡。
恶口永远不要出自于我们的口中，不管他有多坏，
有多恶。你愈骂他，你的心就被污染了，
你要想，他就是你的善知识。
你不要常常觉得自己很委曲，你应该要想，
他对我这样已经很好了，这就是修行的功夫。
世界原本就不是属于你，因此你用不着抛弃，
要抛弃的是一切的执著。
万物皆为我所用，但非我所属。
学会用理解的，欣赏的眼光去看对方，
而不是以自以为是的关心去管对方。
成熟的人不问过去；
聪明的人不问现在；
豁达的人不问未来。
发光并非太阳的专利，你也可以发光。
你可以用爱得到全世界，你也可以用恨失去全世界。
爱的力量大到可以使人忘记一切，
却又小到连一粒嫉妒的沙石也不能容纳。
人总是珍惜未得到的，而遗忘了所拥有的。
如你想要拥有完美无暇的友谊，可能一辈子找不到朋友。

Minor arguments

Arguments always exist in a relationship aint it?
if couples doesn't argue,does that even count as being in relatioship?
If problem exist,solve it then.
If problem continue to persist,find a good solution for both then.
No matter how pathetic i am,no matter how plan-less i am,no matter how doubful are you towards me,i'm still the one that loved you all the time.
I'll be the one that always cover your back,i'll be your only driver,i'll be your only partner to argue with.
I'll always be the one for you.

*EXCEPT you're trying to dumb me off.

内心世界

内心的世界里匿藏着痛苦及疲累的我，渐渐的走向了绝望，
我觉得我拥有一切，其实，我是一无所有，
我好累，我真的好想抛弃一切，但是我却想起了你，
我只想拥有属于我们的空间，毫无拘束。。
此刻，我心里只想起你。
对不起，我的过错，令你掉泪。

New Environment

I've started to work in the new company since last wednesday,everything is fine except for one thing,i can't really get along with one colleague.
I'm not really sure what's wrong with him or me?Is it that i've done anything wrong or else,i'm really sure what's his problem anyway,since the 1st day at work,i've tried to talk to him and he's like being so ignorance,i was like what the fuck,so rude?Fine,i guess i'm 1st day at work so i can't really comment much on this.
But after working for like one week over there,things are not improving either,just now i said to him "Wah,so early eat rice d?",i was talking in front of him,and he acted like i wasn't there and he kept quiet,i was like what the fuck?am i invisible,fine..i'll just fuck off then,i'm really pissed with this kind of attitude,i duno what's wrong with him anyway,it's like people is trying to befriend and he acted so strangely.Don't really know what's going on,just fuck it.Not making friend with one person in the shop doesn't gonna make any difference.So just fuck off.
I'm getting along with others of course,just him,not really sure what's his problem,or perhaps mine,but i'm new overthere,what can i do to pissed him off?
Not really sure,anyway,just fuck it.
Anyway,the working environment is not bad except there's alot of "seafoods" around,but luckily they're not on the ground floor.I'm still in SONY,but different employer.Still not bad just that working hour is longer compared to my previous employer,but who cares?as long as its better than the previous one,i'm really fine with it,since i'm so free right now.Staying at home makes me rot,but working makes me miss my home's bed so much,and my PC of course,hehe.
I've been so lazy to blog recently,will update when i feel like i wanted to.
Cheers!!