Dedication to a new beginning

I got my results few days ago,yea,its kinda late to write it here

the moment i saw my result,i was "stunned" because of something unexpected,

but i'm relieved that i passed all the subjects,

my grades are low,all i got is B,C, and d,i don't even have an A.

I'm gonna commit myself to study better next semester as i'm in Sem 5 currently,

i really played alot for the past few sems,

regret doing so....

{Off Topic}

its so boring right now,what can i do?

i'm not stressed out,i'm not having any problem,

maybe i just like to say boring,

but in fact,it is boring....

Advice please!!!

Anyone can help me?
anyone here to advice me?
how can i save successfully?
i really need to start saving right now,
its real hard for me to save and me myself don't even know why?
once i see things,i'll start to spend,
how much i earn,thats how much i'm gonna spend,
gosh,i really need to stop doing so!!!
God,Help!!!!

You

You look so beautiful today,
You're sitting there and its hard for me to look away,
You still feel far away although i'm here,
You're hearts still bleed even when i accompanied you,
Take a breath,
Pull yourself together until i reach for you,
I'm gonna take you away,
away from reality,
away from sadness,
towards endless happiness,
You're my love,
Take care and ignore any negative feelings,
Good night bie...xoxo

Do You Know?

Do you know what it feels like?
Do you know how it taste?
Do you know i'm a human?
Do you know i'm born with emotions?
Do you know your words do hurt me?
Do you know i'm so sick of your attitude?
Do you think i want it?
Do you think i'm proud of it?
Do you think you're perfect?
Do you think you're good?
Do you know i don't wanna lose myself?
Do you want me to explode?
Can you stop saying all those words that hurt people?
You can do anything your mind set you to do,
but do you think of the feeling of the people around you?
People don't say a word doesn't mean they felt nothing,
they might smile towards you,but they felt something within,
Do you ever think of that?
I'm so sick of this....

脆弱的我

今天的我,是如此的堕落,
谁会明白我的心情?
何为堕落?
脆弱的我渐渐的堕向无底的深渊,
我的心情仿佛碎裂的玻璃,
人是如此多情的动物吗?
人总是会胡思乱想吗?
摇滚音乐或许比较适合现在的我吧?
受过的种种委屈渐渐的回想起,
受惯委屈的我依然一声不哼,
批评指正,嘲笑,讽刺,我一一回想,
突然觉得想大声的谷出一切,
我总是如此的脆弱吗?
我还能像以往般喜笑颜开吗?
我真的厌倦了,这真的是我吗?
我只想好好的睡个大觉.晚安.

frustrated

i'm so damn frustrated,i just wanna find someone to talk with,
end up nobody will willing to talk with me,
so,just forget about it,
being kind to people doesn't mean that that person will being kind to you as well,
life is tough,yes indeed,
with the little luck i have,what can i do?
i'm doing nothing,i'm just standing there the whole day,
watching people come and people go,
greet em,approach em,have a little conversation,then "boom",there he go..
i understand that not every one that come in will buy,but why the one that wanna buy doesn't come and find me?
am i bad looking?my appearance very bad?or what?
i'm just being so frustrated,my cash is already running low and i did work it out for it,
but why i'm not being paid off?
its not that i'm not working hard,i do,
but why?anyone here to tell me?
i just wanna save some money to spend on year end,
nobody is helping me out,i can't help myself out but to depends on the little luck i have,
skills,does it really matter?if that particular person don't wanna buy,will your so called skill make it buy?i guess no.It all depends,if the person is already wanted to buy,even you have no skill,
you're gonna close the deal as well.Skill doesn't really matter anyway,what's important are the products knowledge.
i'm just so frustrated today,nobody is talking with me,so i'm talking with my own pc,
i'm writting it out.
it's just me,its reality,everyone needs cash to live in this world,
don't you?
fuck it anyway...

fucked up day for me

oh my god,i really ran out of luck i guess,
i'm just so god damn screwed,
holy shit,
JUSCO<---------o0o u
can't you be more responsible in placing your price tag?
you know what?they placed an 4 bucks bread under a 2.1 bucks category,
i was then "cheated".
today is really not a day for me,
wandering around the shop for like 12 hours and got a RM68's sales,
which is totaly no commission for me,
oh my god,i'm really wondering why am i so screwed?

I'm just so fucked up right now...

Bored to the max

Gosh,working is so damn boring,

You're not killing the time instead the time kills you,

gosh,in addition to you're not having any sales,

oh my god,i really have no idea why am i working since i'm not selling,

am i out of luck?

or i'm just suck?

oh,anyway,fuck it..

i really need cash anyway,how am i gonna get cash when i'm not selling?

oh my fucking god,somebody help me please..

extra incentives please,extra wages please,

i've been working for like more than half year without a raise in my hourly wages,

oh my god,i'm just wondering am i suck or what?

i'm just feeling i lose the mood to work,i've been paid lower than previous company,i'm just wondering why i'm working over here?

but,forget it..since i have more flexible working hour over here,maybe that's a compensation to the lowered wages.that's what i guess?

cash,when are u gonna come to me?

i wonder any single human in the world is not bothered by this "cash"?

i really doubt that...

i'm really been troubled by this "cash" for quite some time,

i really hope to settle it ASAP..

God damn it..

Anyway,that's all i wanna say..

i'm not flaming,i'm not complaining,

i'm not blaming anyone

i just wanna shout out everything.

第一次(lame post)

哈哈，
这是我的第一次在此用华文写＂blog＂,
毕竟也是第一次吧，给些面子好吗？

世界是如此的巨大，
上天却让我遇见你，
是你让我的生命充满希望，
是你的用心令我感动，
也许我真的不值得你对我如此的用心良苦，
我也无法描述你有多爱我？
然而你也默默的为我掉下无数的泪水，
当我问及此事，你却对我微笑回答＂没有事啦＂
偶尔我也忽略了你，真的对不起．
感谢您对我的付出，
感谢你对我的好，
argh..forget it..damn..
i really have no idea on how to write it?
anyway..i just wanted to say,
i'll do the same for you like what you did for me,
you're the brightess star that'll always shine high upon the sky,
you're the only one and only deserved a place in my heart,
you're the one that make me go crazy when you gone missing,
you're my only one,this short sentence is dedicated to you,
i'm just being lame in writing mandarin,
i don't really have any idea on how to make it artistic.
anyway,we're getting sugar glider soon,
hope that it'll make us much more entertained and happy throughout our day,

kimi o aishiteru
愛してる

Your Love,

Cute right?

omg...here's the little cutie thats gonna become my family member and blend into part of my rest next month,its so cute right?
wonder why some people said its ugly?
maybe you have a bad taste? or you just don't like exotic pets?
lol..
anyway...gonna post more photo of her after i'm getting one..
yea..its her,i'm gonna get a pair of hers...

Broken Barrier

This moment has come to me finally,my rock hard barrier had be broken down,
tear rolled out from my eyes for the 1st time i being with her,
your words are as sharp as those sword that it plunge through my heart,
i'm sorry that i've made you cry,i don't really mean anything,
but your words really pierce through my heart and it hurts,
i may not be the best man in the world,i'm sorry and i didn't blame you as well,it was
my fault after all.

(off topic)
Today is not my day,everything bad keep coming towards me,
ate a stupid cake at mamak,the so called famous "bloodsucker shop" "KAYU",
i was like wtf?just a small piece of vadai and it cost me RM 0.80?i can get it for RM0.30 or RM0.40 outside,damn..
today is really not my day..i'm just so fucked up about the food.

I'm back

Woo hoo,i'm back after a crazy examination week,
tomorrow onwards,i'm going to work after then after finish i'm ma go gym,
i wish that i could have a leaner and healthier body,
wish that i could achieve it,
anyway,back to the topic,yea i'm back,
i'm here once again...
guys and girls,enjoy your holiday if you're having holiday...
phew,i'm so freaking boring at home right now,
gosh,gonna go youth park for a jog later...
anyway,enjoy your two week holidays INTI College's student.
ENJOY!!!!

The Beginning

Holy shit,its the beginning of my Final Examination week
oh damn,one paper had done,don't think that i'm gonna score anyway..
haha..wish me luck,
studying for SAD now
its not sad,its system analysis and design,but it really turn out to be sad...
lol..
Good luck guys and girls...

Its near

Oh my god....counting down for my final exam is 3 more days..
damn..and i haven't really prepare for it although i did go through abit..
oh crap...i'm just being so lame..
dammit....is this really me?
Yea..its me,i've being behaving like this since i was in the Primary..lol..
but i still can make it i guess..
I'm used to the situation i've been facing right now...
Crap,i really gotta move my big bad ass,or else i'm gonna fail and disappoint my family...
For god's sake,go study...
Mean while,good luck to all my mates...
Hope you all will get results with flying colors....
Good Luck and hope to see you all again next semester...
I must make it..

You

You,got me thinking all night long,
You,believed me in every single lie,
I was waiting for the day you come around,
I was chasing but nothing was all i've found,
From the moment you've came into my life,
You've show me what's right,
I never felt like this before,
Just when i leave,i'll be back for more,
In these ever changing days,
You're that one thing that remains,
I wish i could stay like this forever....

Creativity?

haha...i'm so into photo editing nowadays even i have not enough time.
haha...i've uploaded one of my beginner production..haha..
i felt that its nice..lol...
comment for me please...lol

it looks nice on MAC...maybe because of my calibrated LCD...
it does look nice on windows as well...but not that nice...lol..
comment please for a beginner...lol..

i'm stil awake

i'm still awake with thoughts in my mind,
what am i thinking?
i just can't sleep,
many things had been troubling me,
desires to buy something,people,studies,future planing
all this causes me headache,
when it comes to my sweet bed time,
these things just cant keep away from me,
it just keep on coming,
sigh,i'm such a problematic teenager,
what happen if i'm a grown up adult?
will i have more things to concern?
sigh.....
i wanna take a break,i wanna runaway,i want solutions
anyone?
i'm tired,i'm torned,i'm stressed to the max....

farewell my friend

Good Bye once again from me to you,
Time passes very fast,
within the one month that you came back,
we didn't really hang out that much,
but still we hang out often lol,
anyway,last night was really a great night for us old friends,
you shouldn't have missed it,
we chit chat throughout our way in my home till 6 o clock in the morning,
it was a suprise tho,
anyway,if you happen to come back again this year end,do join us "kap siao" till the morning,
we haven't done that for quite sometimes,
if i'm not mistaken,we done that often at kok yang's house during high school,
it was a nice experience i have with you guys,
after i graduated from high school,i seems like lost contact with others or they just vanish somewhere else,
but i'm still contacting with both you and kok yang,
both you and kok yang are really a nice friend of mine,
i really appreciate both of u being my friend
take good care of yourself at brisbane noobie,
see u again if u happens to come back this year end,
will miss you alot,take care and have a safe journey tomorrow.
Good Night.....

Point Of View

Everyone in this world think differently,do things differently,
Its up to how you wish to accept the facts or events that come upon you,
Are you gonna accept it with a positive thinking instead of a negative one?
Let's took an example of scenario that happened to me before,while i was having
Biology class during my high school,when the teacher discuss about a chapter with reproduction and there's something like the male's reproduction system as well as the female.Some female student are very shy during that particular chapter,whenever i wanted to discuss or ask them something,they'll said that i'm pervert.
I was like,"what the fuck?are you ok?".Seriously,i don't really understand certain people,my current college classmate,a female one,i think that she's very open..its not like i'll talk anything to her,it was like,she's sporting..anything u thrown at her,she'll throw it back to you..anything,good or bad,if u happened to scold her with vulgar words,she would do that as well...
I love this kind of people,they're outgoing,they're open,and they can accept anything...
Maybe certain people thinks that too open is not good,but if you're not open,how are you gonna learn new things?
Basically,i'm a open minded guy,you can share almost anything with me..
Anything..that you can think of..lol
Anyway,i'm still staying even though its already late..argh,i need to have a good sleep,i've been lacking good sleep since few days ago...awww,i miss it...
Anyway,good night everyone and try to be open..socialize more...
Good Night and happy reading through my boring post...

i'm relieved

Cool,finally i'm relieving...
yea,i am..lol
but within that particular one week,i'm gonna prepare for my Final Examination,
this time i'm gonna score,yea,i want to..but not sure whether i'll make it or not?
anyway,i'm feeling extraordinary good cause i'm relieved...that feeling is nice,u feel yourself very loose,you don't have to worry about anything...hope i'll always stick to this state within my mind..lol
i hope so..but in this world,everyone is worrying bout something except the newborn child(or maybe they were thinking,just that we don't understand em?).I went to bed right after i came back from my college's event.i was so damn tired due to rushing assignment yesterday nite.
Anyway,enjoy your weekend guys...