I'm down

It's so damn boring these few days.Although I got lots of stuff to do,but I don't seems like I'm in the mood of doing it.
Haiz,suddenly I felt so down,I don't know why,money problem?I guess so,but that's not the main reason.
Boring makes me feel emo,and I don't like being emo,I felt like driving around the island,I know that I might sound crazy?but that's what I did when I was emo.
Sometimes when u're trying to chat with other people,they tend to ignore u or just reply a few words,I hate that.
Eveything is so not right!
What can I do?what should I do?
I miss the old time where I used to hangout with my
mates,although we lived in the same island,but we don't seems to contact each other that much like we used to,or totally don't conact each other at all.
New friends seems cool,but after chated for like few times,the tend to ignore u as well.
Is it the way I talk got some serious problem or what?or is it the problem of other people??
I don't know,I'm not good in those good nor best friend thingy.
I don't have a good friend to talk with,I only had a good gf tht would share the stuff that I carried on my shoulder.
Still,friends and girlfriend is totally two different things.Some topics u only say it to your gf,some you only say it to your friend.
I don't know whether I have serious communication problem or what??
Am I too cocky?or I'm being too friendly?
Today I'm just so down,not in the mood of doing anything.

Its been a while

Its been a while since my previous post. Life's been so tough on me lately,with so few pennies with me,but there's loads of stuff that i gotta spend for.Its unfair,as always,life is always unfair.
I just broke down,i'm trying to put myself back together.
All that i'm after is the life that's full of laughter,but life's been so dull to me lately.
But i believe that there people out there who still cared for me,my bie,my friends.Thanks to bb, thanks to khing!
i believe that life after this will be much better,full of laughter...
Those who think that life's been tough on them,which i'm one of them as well should consider that there's more people out there which their condition is far worst than us.
i felt grateful for my life but in the same time i hate the way it is.